Heize (헤이즈) - Didn't Know Me (내가 더 나빠)

Heize (헤이즈)

Didn't Know Me (내가 더 나빠)

Hangul

그리워하면서도 미워했어 널

결국에 난 엄마 앞에서까지도

눈물을 보이고 맘 아프게 하고

그게 불효지 뭐

대체 넌 왜 나라는 사람의

살 만 하던 삶에 들어와 불행하게

만들어 버린 건지 난 묻고 싶고

그 대답을 꼭 듣고 싶다고

못 된 나의 원망뿐이던

문자에 몰래 아파야 했던

네 맘을 이제야 알 것 같아

내가 더 나빠 더 나빠

너보다 나빠 더 나빠

네가 더 아파 더 아팠을걸

이제 와 난 알아

그런 널 알면서

네가 내 곁을 떠나갔단 이유로

널 아프게 했어

나는 너에게 사랑과 웃음만을

줬던 것 같은데 이런 아픔 나는

원하지 않는데 너는 왜 나에게

주고 떠 난건데

매일 되뇌어 나쁜 놈이야 넌

나 없이 너는 괜찮은 거냔 그 말에

눈물은 왜 흘린 건지 묻고 싶어

떠나고 싶지 않아 보였다고

나 좀 안아달라고

억지 부리고 붙잡고 울던

날 보던 네 맘은 어땠을까

내가 더 나빠 더 나빠

너보다 나빠 더 나빠

네가 더 아파 더 아팠을걸

이제 와 난 알아

그런 널 알면서

네가 내 곁을 떠나갔단 이유로

널 아프게 했어

내 미래를 위해서라 했던

그 말을 이제 다 이해했고

너가 없는 지옥 같던 그 시간들

이렇게 잘 견뎌냈으니

나 잘 했다고

이제 나를 안아주면

다시 와 주면 안 될까

내가 더 나빠 더 나빠

너보다 나빠 더 나빠

네가 더 아파 더 아팠을걸

이제 와 난 알아

그런 널 알면서

네가 내 곁을 떠나갔단 이유로

널 아프게 했어

***

Romanization

Geuriwohamyeonseodo miwohaesseo neol

Gyeolguge nan eomma apeseokkajido

Nunmureul boigo mam apeuge hago

Geuge bulhyoji mwo

Daeche neon wae naraneun sarame

Sal man hadeon salme deureowa bulhaenghage

Mandeureo beorin geonji nan mutgo shipgo

Geu daedabeul kkok deutgo shipdago

Mot dwen naye wonmangppunideon

Munjae mollae apaya haetteon

Ne mameul ijeya al geot gata

Naega deo nappa deo nappa

Neoboda nappa deo nappa

Nega deo apa deo apasseulgeol

Ije wa nan ara

Geureon neol almyeonseo

Nega nae gyeocheul tteonagattan iyuro

Neol apeuge haesseo

Naneun neoege saranggwa useummaneul

Jwotteon geot gateunde ireon apeum naneun

Wonhaji anneunde neoneun wae naege

Jugo tteo nangeonde

Maeil dwenweeo nappeun nomiya neon

Na eopshi neoneun gwaenchaneun geonyan geu mare

Nunmureun wae heullin geonji mutgo shipeo

Tteonago shipji ana boyeottago

Na jom anadallago

Eokji burigo butjabgo uldeon

Nal bodeon ne mameun eottaesseulkka

Naega deo nappa deo nappa

Neoboda nappa deo nappa

Nega deo apa deo apasseulgeol

Ije wa nan ara

Geureon neol almyeonseo

Nega nae gyeocheul tteonagattan iyuro

Neol apeuge haesseo

Nae miraereul wihaeseora haetteon

Geu mareul ije da ihaehaetgo

Neoga eopneun jiok gatdeon geu shigandeul

Ireoke jal gyeondyeonaesseuni

Na jal haettago

Ije nareul anajumyeon

Dashi wa jumyeon an dwelkka

Naega deo nappa deo nappa

Neoboda nappa deo nappa

Nega deo apa deo apasseulgeol

Ije wa nan ara

Geureon neol almyeonseo

Nega nae gyeocheul tteonagattan iyuro

Neol apeuge haesseo

***

English

I missed you but I hated you too

In the end, I cried even in front of my mom

Making her being pain too

That's being a bad daughter

Why did you come into my life

That was once good and make it bad?

I wanted to ask you

I wanted to hear your answer

But I finally realized

How you had to secretly hurt

Because of my resentful texts

I'm worse, I'm worse

I'm worse than you

Now I finally know

How you were hurt even more

I knew that about you

But just because you left me

I hurt you more

I thought I only gave you love and laughter

I don't want this kind of pain

So why did you give it to me

And leave?

I told myself every day, you're a bad guy

When I asked you if you were gonna be ok without me

You shed a tear and I wanted to ask why

I wanted to say you didn't look like you wanted to leave

I asked you to hold me

Throwing a fit and crying

I wonder how you felt when you looked at me acting like that

I'm worse, I'm worse

I'm worse than you

Now I finally know

How you were hurt even more

I knew that about you

But just because you left me

I hurt you more

You said it was for my future

Now I understand

Times without you felt like hell

But I endured through them

So can't you say I did a good job

Can't you hug me?

And come back to me?

I'm worse, I'm worse

I'm worse than you

Now I finally know

How you were hurt even more

I knew that about you

But just because you left me

I hurt you more

***

Bahasa

Aku merindukanmu tapi aku juga membencimu

Pada akhirnya, aku menangis di depan ibuku

Membuat dia merasakan sakit ini juga

Aku menjadi putri yang buruk

Mengapa kau datang ke dalam hidupku

Dulu semua baik-baik saja lalu berubah menjadi buruk?

Aku ingin bertanya padamu

Aku ingin mendengar jawabanmu

Sampai akhirnya aku sadar

Bagaimana kau menutupi rasa sakitmu

Karena pesan-pesanku yang sebelumnya

Aku lebih jahat, aku lebih jahat

Aku lebih jahat darimu

Sekarang akhirnya aku tahu

Kaulah yang lebih terluka

Aku tahu semua tentangmu

Tapi hanya karena kau meninggalkanku

Aku menyakitimu lagi

Ku kira aku hanya memberimu cinta dan tawa

Aku tak ingin rasa sakit seperti ini

Lalu mengapa kau memberikannya kepadaku

Lalu pergi?

Setiap hari aku berkata pada diriku sendiri, 'kau orang yang jahat'

Saat aku bertanya 'apa kau akan baik-baik saja tanpaku?'

kau meneteskan air mata dan ku ingin bertanya mengapa

Aku ingin mengatakan jika kau terlihat seperti tak ingin pergi

Genggamlah diriku

Luapkan semuanya dan menangislah

Aku penasaran bagaimana perasaanmu saat melihatku seperti itu

Aku lebih jahat, aku lebih jahat

Aku lebih jahat darimu

Sekarang akhirnya aku tahu

Kaulah yang lebih terluka

Aku tahu semua tentangmu

Tapi hanya karena kau meninggalkanku

Aku menyakitimu lagi

Kau bilang semua ini untuk masa depanku

Sekarang aku mengerti

Setiap kali kau merasa seperti di neraka

Namun aku tetap bertahan melalui itu semua

Tak bisakah kau mengatakan aku telah melakukan yang terbaik? 

Tak bisakah kau memeluku?

Dan kembali padaku?

Aku lebih jahat, aku lebih jahat

Aku lebih jahat darimu

Sekarang akhirnya aku tahu

Kaulah yang lebih terluka

Aku tahu semua tentangmu

Tapi hanya karena kau meninggalkanku

Aku menyakitimu lagi

***

Kor: music.naver

Rom: CCL

Eng: pop!gasa

Indo: KwonOngKang